Bring on the good times and blackouts.

Tomorrow is FINALLY my 21st birthday. So long to the days of me driving everyone’s drunk ass around, so long to the days of everyone going out but me, and bring on the party. I’ve always been friends with people who are older than me which has its advantages and disadvantages. Advantage- I always have someone to buy me alcohol/share theirs with me, Dis- I can’t drink with them in public. Even in college all my friends worked at one bar but I couldn’t drink there. Ok, that’s a total lie, I found ways. But they technically wouldn’t serve me. I drank at all of their houses though, even the managers and bouncers. The bouncers used to draw the most ridiculous “X”s on my hands because they thought it was hilarious and then at the end of the night get me fucked up. But now, that is ALL OVER WITH. And I’m stoked.

Cue Dramatic Music.

So Navy Boy is home on leave. He came to see me before he went to his parents house. Things were pretty good. We of course slept together and he promised he would be back this weekend for my birthday. Everything I’ve wanted for months right? Weeeeellllll…. I got drunk last night and invited Couch Boy over. We had a big long heart to heart talk and somehow ended up naked. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know if I want Navy Boy to come anymore. Shit, I don’t even know if I want Couch Boy there either. Why does everything always have to be so damn complicated? I feel horrible about sleeping with CB again, but it’s not stopping me from being tempted to invite him over again tonight to just chill. That is if he’s not hanging out with whatshername.

Oh lawdy.

I’m pretty sure I can’t even tell you the details of last night. But let’s just put it this way, I got FUCKED up. And not just alcohol. So I did the most logical thing I could do ever, I started talking to Couch Boy. Mostly because I was freaking out about what a horrible person I am and needed someone to talk to. While I was talking to him though Couch Girl sent a message forgiving me while still telling me she wanted a legitimate relationship with Couch Boy. Needless to say, I freaked out on him and told him to never contact me again. I apologized this morning but he’s been trying to talk to me since then. Probably because I freaked him out. Oh well. I really need to stop getting drunk and taking very illegal substances. It makes me say things I shouldn’t to people I shouldn’t. Oh, and the best friend is sleeping with our new roommate, which I figured was happening but I didn’t know for sure until I heard them last night. Out with the old, in with the new I guess.

I broke it off.

Turns out Couch Boy was still sleeping with Couch Girl. So I told him I couldn’t see him anymore. He had the nerve to ask if we could still hang out. Um, no. You were the douchebag who thought you could get away with sleeping with two girls at once and no one would get hurt. Why would I ever want to put myself in that situation again? I genuinely liked him up until last night when some truths came out. He apparently thought he was just a fun fling for me and didn’t realize there were feelings involved. Even though I told him previously I liked him. At this point I’m so sick of guys. I thought maybe he was different, but nope, he’s just like every other one.

How soon is too soon?

So here’s the deal, things have been going really great with Couch Boy. Like, really great. I even told him that I liked him “like that”. The problem? I don’t know what he wants. I don’t know if he’s still seeing Couch Girl. How soon is too soon to ask him what the deal with us is? I don’t want to seem clingy but I need to know if it’s just going to be a fuck buddy thing or and actual could be a relationship thing. If it’s just a fuck buddy thing then I need to slow down and get unattached. The answers I have gotten range from two weeks to a month. I cannot wait a month. Why do relationships have to be so complicated? Navy Boy is pissed off at me because I told him I wouldn’t be able to see him when he came home on leave. I told him it was because of work but it’s actually because I want to see where things with Couch Boy will go. Engineer Boy is actually talking to me for right now and talking about coming to see me but I’ll believe that when he shows up at my door step. And now I have to go back to hell, aka- Work, and serve all the rude fuckers in the greater Charlotte area. Fun fun. Luckily they are calling for severe thunderstorms so maybe it will be dead, fingers crossed.

Oops, I did it again…

I slept with Couch Boy again. Once drunk and once sober. The worst part? I think I might actually like him. He’s funny, attentive, smart, and great in bed. He’s already texted me today saying he was thinking about me. I don’t know what to do or think. I don’t even know if he’s still regularly sleeping with his fuck buddy. We do have plans to go play paintball the next time it rains. There is nothing more exhilarating than shooting the shit out of someone while you’re rolling around in mud (see, I TOLD you I was in the military). And when you’re done you can take a hot shower together and laugh at each other’s bruises. Not that I’ve done that before or anything…  He has also made plans to buy me a drink on my birthday already. If Navy Boy does happen to come things may get a little, umm, AWKWARD. But I haven’t talked to him in a week, I did call him last night before Couch Boy showed up and told him to call me today so maybe he will? Who knows with him.

I can’t believe myself.

From Sunday night until yesterday morning I was drunk. Not the I’ve been drinking a few beers all day kind of drunk, no, more like the I’m going to pretend to give someone head and let that picture go on facebook kind of drunk. The last time I was continuously drunk like that was when my family went on a cruise last year. Oh, and also, I got laid. However, dude already has a pretty regular fuck buddy so I’m thinking it was a one time deal. Plus, I know her. Actually, the first time they slept together was in our house on our couch. I keep it so classy. It’s ok though because Engineer Boy is coming to see me soon and shortly after that Navy Boy will be here.

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