How soon is too soon?

So here’s the deal, things have been going really great with Couch Boy. Like, really great. I even told him that I liked him “like that”. The problem? I don’t know what he wants. I don’t know if he’s still seeing Couch Girl. How soon is too soon to ask him what the deal with us is? I don’t want to seem clingy but I need to know if it’s just going to be a fuck buddy thing or and actual could be a relationship thing. If it’s just a fuck buddy thing then I need to slow down and get unattached. The answers I have gotten range from two weeks to a month. I cannot wait a month. Why do relationships have to be so complicated? Navy Boy is pissed off at me because I told him I wouldn’t be able to see him when he came home on leave. I told him it was because of work but it’s actually because I want to see where things with Couch Boy will go. Engineer Boy is actually talking to me for right now and talking about coming to see me but I’ll believe that when he shows up at my door step. And now I have to go back to hell, aka- Work, and serve all the rude fuckers in the greater Charlotte area. Fun fun. Luckily they are calling for severe thunderstorms so maybe it will be dead, fingers crossed.


I can’t believe myself.

From Sunday night until yesterday morning I was drunk. Not the I’ve been drinking a few beers all day kind of drunk, no, more like the I’m going to pretend to give someone head and let that picture go on facebook kind of drunk. The last time I was continuously drunk like that was when my family went on a cruise last year. Oh, and also, I got laid. However, dude already has a pretty regular fuck buddy so I’m thinking it was a one time deal. Plus, I know her. Actually, the first time they slept together was in our house on our couch. I keep it so classy. It’s ok though because Engineer Boy is coming to see me soon and shortly after that Navy Boy will be here.

Mind Games Pt. 2

So I haven’t spoken to Navy Boy in almost a week. I gave up trying, especially after he told me he didn’t actually want me to move in with him, he was just drunk when he said it. I’m done playing his mind games. I do love him but love isn’t supposed to leave you feeling empty inside. He’s supposed to be back home next weekend and I was supposed to go see him but we will see how that plays out. I probably won’t especially since my car is a piece of shit and won’t make it to his hometown, plus the last time I drove a piece of shit car to go see him my car blew up. In other mind game news, Engineer Boy texted me. I was shocked. I’m keeping it casual though, no dirty texts yet. Also I have decided to give the online dating thing more energy since those two can’t make up their minds, maybe I’ll find someone who can.

What’s with the mind games?

Boys say girls are confusing, girls say boys are confusing. So which is it really? Why can’t both sexes just stop with the mind games. I think everyone would be a lot happier. Navy Boy and I haven’t really talked since he dropped his bombshell on me. He told me he would call me but never did. So I finally broke down and texted him (see, I’m totally guilty of the mind games) and then found out I was on speaker phone. I don’t do speaker phone especially when one of your Navy buddies is drunk and laughing hysterically and repeating everything I say. He told me he would call me back. Two days later he still hasn’t. Why after telling me you want to marry me would you just drop off the face of the earth? Navy Boy’s jedi mind tricks have nothing on Engineer Boy though. I haven’t had any contact with him since the day after I saw him. None. Not even a drunk text. He’s supposed to be in town soon and I’m wondering if he’ll try to come over. I can assure you for an absolute fact though that he won’t be. Guys confuse and irritate me. If you’re not interested let me know straight up. Don’t string me along. Don’t tell me you want to marry me and then drop off the planet. Don’t beg me to come see you then don’t talk to me for a month. I’m totally drinking tonight until both of these two are off my mind. I’m turning off my phone and sober me is going to hide it from drunk me.

More Confused Than EVER

So I went and spent the night with Engineer Boy before he jetted off to his summer internship. The sex was good, everything else- awkward. He kept bringing up girls he had slept with. So of course I came back at him with my own stories. So I can’t really compete with some slut asking him to bend her over the chair and fuck her on a boat, at least most of the guys I have had sex with had meaning. I’ve asked some guys about what the hell this strange behavior means and apparently he’s trying to make me jealous. Newsflash- we’re not dating, I’m not going to get jealous. Awkward feeling, yes, jealous, no. He wants me to come down to see him sometime this summer and I’m just not sure I’m feeling it. I think I may be at the point where I’m forcing myself to feel a certain way about him because of our history. Life has a funny way of working itself out so we’ll see. In other news, I got into a car accident on the way home from seeing him. At the scene no one had injuries now apparently they do and they’re trying to get something out of me. Here’s another newsflash- I’m completely fucking broke. If they try to sue me for my net-worth they’re gonna be disappointed when they see a negative number!

Lock Up Your Boyfriend

Apparently I give off an air of wanting to fuck other people’s boyfriends. A few weeks after moving in the new apartment the BFF drunkenly told her boyfriend he was in the wrong bed and he should go to mine. He and I laughed it off and never mentioned it to her again. Mostly because she was drunk. We do spend a lot of time together, but shit, we work together and live together. Our schedules are really similar, not to mention he has become one of my closest friends. This weekend however it was the other roommate accusing me of wanting to sleep with her man. She and I didn’t really know each other well before we moved in together and to be perfectly honest, we still don’t. I’m trying though, I spend as much time as I can with her and we talk about what is going on in our lives presently but that’s about it. The other night she went to pick up the guy she’s been seeing to bring him back to the apartment and she sent me a whopper of a text, “be honest do u wanna fuck *****? im not gonna be mad”. Um, NO. She said it was because I was always asking about him and asking if he was coming over. I ask about him to make conversation and I ask if he’s coming over to know who the hell is going to be in my apartment. I ask the BFF’s BF if his friend is coming over all the time and he’s there almost nightly. Do I want to fuck him? Absolutely not. Anyways, I reassured her I wanted nothing more than for her to be happy and I thought things were fine until today. I was busy all day and when I finally got to my phone I had a text that just said “is this navy?” from a strange number. Since the strange number knew I had been in the Navy I figured it was someone I knew and when I replied asking who it was they just said “i want ur body”. Classy right? I finally figured out who it was, my roommate’s very best guy friend who she may or may not have a thing with depending on the day. Turns out she gave him my number in an effort to hook us up. I may be going through a dry spell but that doesn’t mean I want to be hooked up with someone who has history with someone I care about. I think I’m just going to have a talk with her to figure out what gives. Speaking of my dry spell, I’m seeing Engineer Boy next week. Maybe it will shed some light on Engineer Boy vs. Navy Boy.

Navy Boy FTW (for right now anyways…)

Two nights ago he told me he was still wrapped around my little finger. Last night he told me he would pay for half my airplane ticket to come see him. Somewhere inside of me I know he’s the wrong one for me. Or maybe he is the perfect one. He has spent so much more time with me than Engineer Boy and knows me so much better. Hell, he dated me when I came out of the worst relationship I’ve ever been in. I was watching a show last night and it summed it up perfectly, you know when you look into someone’s eyes and they just hook you? That’s love. And that’s what happened with us. Also, he gave me a really good discount on my oil change. I’m supposed to go see Engineer Boy when he’s home from college this month. We will see how that goes versus how I feel about Navy Boy. On a less serious note, I’m going bathing suit shopping today. Granted, it’s only at Walmart, but I love all their new stuff. Plus, I haven’t had a Miley Cyrus line fix in a while. I’m long overdue for something purple, black, or white.

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